30 Things About My Invisible Illnesses

This past week has been Invisible Illness Week.  As someone who has been living with Type 2 Diabetes and Congestive Heart Failure for nearly 3 years, I’d say I know a thing or two about living with such illnesses.  And since stealing ideas from Kerri seems to be the trendy thing to do these days, I’ve decided to take a shot at the 30 Things About My Invisible Illness Meme.  Since I live with two invisible illnesses, though, I’ll be making slight tweaks to accommodate them.  So, go grab a diet coke, sit back, and enjoy.

1. The illnesses I live with are:  Type 2 Diabetes & Congestive Heart Failure

2. I was diagnosed with them in the year:   2008

3. But I had symptoms since:   Longer than I really care to admit.  Looking back, I probably had the symptoms of type 2 diabetes for at least a few years before I developed the yeast infection that led me to the doctor.  I’d been experiencing some chest pain, shortness of breath, fatigue, etc… related to the congestive heart failure for a while too.  As with so many people, I didn’t have insurance and couldn’t afford a doctor visit.

4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: Has been in my attitude and outlook on life.  And I’m thankful that it has changed for the better.

5. Most people assume: That because I’m a big guy I must have given myself Type 2 Diabetes and Congestive Heart Failure.  And you know the saying about the word “assume”.

6. The hardest part about mornings are:  Is that my mornings are really afternoons.  I work nights. And working nights with diabetes and congestive heart failure is a bitch.  You might even say it’s not for the faint of heart. (Pun) haha.

7. My favorite medical TV show is: I don’t really have one.

8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is: My meter.  My cell phone is a close second. I use it to keep track of all of my doctor appointments, med refills, etc…

9. The hardest part about nights are: Well, I work nights as a professional code monkey for a newspaper. So, I’ve got thoughts about diabetes, heart failure, etc… racing around while I’m working through complex algorithms needed to make things work properly and what I end up with is a clusterf **k topped off with a migraine headache.   By the way, chronic migraines is another invisible illness I deal with.

10. Every day I take 10 different oral medications, some multiple times a day, take two injections of Byetta, use an asthma inhaler, and a nasal spray. And this is my blog, and I’ll comment if  want to. 😛

11. Regarding alternative treatments I:  If by alternative treatments you mean cinnamon, miracle diets, and snake oils, I’m not a subscriber to the philosophy.

12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: I’ll stick with my invisible illnesses.  They are easier to conceal on days when I really don’t feel like talking about them.

13. Regarding working and career:  Honestly, I work for the insurance, and for the money to pay the co-pays forced on me by the insurance company.  And I’ve been doing this work thing in the same place for 5 years now. I guess you can call that a start to a career.

14. People would be surprised to know:  That prior to my diagnoses, I really didn’t give a shit about Twitter. Had no use for it, and thought it was just another trendy thing that would fizzle.

15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been:  The overwhelming financial burden that has come with it.

16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was:  when I was diagnosed with Congestive Heart Failure, I gave up all hope of ever being able to fly on an airplane.  Everything I read and heard indicated that I shouldn’t it.  I’m so thankful that I’ve had that opportunity, and that my first flights were taken to meet my DOC friends.

17. The commercials about my illness: Annoy the hell out of me.

18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is:  If anything, I miss not constantly thinking about my health.  It gets old.

19. It was really hard to have to give up:  You know, I don’t believe that I’ve given up much at all.  Unless you count giving up my sanity, and I didn’t have much of that to lose to begin with.

20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is:  Traveling to meet strangers I meet on the internet.

21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would:  Normal scares me.  Besides, I can’t change what’s happened in the past. I can only make the best of the days I have yet to live.

22. My illness has taught me:  That it is OK to stop and think about what is best for ME.  And that life is precious.

23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is:  “You don’t look sick.”

24. But I love it when people: Actually take an interest in how I’m doing, and show that they genuinely care.

25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is: “Stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit.  It’s when things seem worst that you must not quit!”

26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them:  That there is great life after diagnosis.

27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: that so many good things have come to my life because of something bad.

28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn’t feeling well was: Give me a hug and tell me that she loves me. 🙂

29. I’m involved with Invisible Illness Week because: People need to know that we are living with these Invisible Illnesses.  Because we need to raise awareness. And if it’s going to be, then it’s up to me!

30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel:  That you care.  Thank YOU!