My Diabetic Heart

Living with Congestive Heart Failure and Type 2 Diabetes

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Type 2 Diabetes and Congestive Heart Failure are two common conditions that people are diagnosed with every day. Living with one of these conditions at any age is hard enough; imagine living with both at the age of 28. That's what this blog is all about. It's about my life with Type 2 Diabetes and CHF, and about showing that you can live a fulfilling life with each.

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May

Excited for Nothing

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Today’s Garfield cartoon over at www.garfield.com seems to be the perfect illustration for how I’m feeling about the problems I’ve been having with my blood sugars and medications lately.

My doctor discontinued my use of Janumet because of the nasty stomach side effects that were wreaking havoc on my life.  That medication was doing wonderful things for my blood glucose levels, but the side effects were too much to deal with.

When the doctor said she was putting my back on Glipizide, I was excited about the change because I knew the stomach side effects would go away, and that I’d be on a medication that had worked well on my blood glucose control when I was initially diagnosed.  I said, I was excited.

Over the last two weeks, that excitement has morphed into a feeling of desperation, as I’ve realized that while the stomach problems are gone, the medication is doing nothing to help my blood glucose levels.

So, much like Garfield, I was out on a limb, an old “friend” appeared to be coming to help, yet ended up taking a leak on the tree and annoying the hell out of me.

So, now instead of being safely and comfortable back on stable ground, I’m still hanging out on the high limb.  Only this time, the limb is coated in lots of sugar.  And believe me, it’s making me anything but sweet.

I’m trying to do all the right things.  I’m eating well, I’m active, and trying to lose more weight, but the medications are failing, and diabetes is doing what it does best: kicking me while I’m down.

So, I’m at a crossroads.  Do I try other oral medications or do I try a combination of oral meds and injectibles?  Or do I just say screw it, and tell the doctor that I just want to give insulin therapy a try.  I know she won’t like that option, but I’m willing to try anything right now.  And ultimately, it is my decision.  Right?!

Anyway, I know this rough patch will pass.   I just have to hold on to this limb for a little while longer, and hope to hell that the next option to pass my way won’t just take a leak on the tree.

  1. on May 16th at 06:34 pm
    Colleen said:

    Mike,
    You have to do whatever you think will work best for you to control YOUR diabetes.

  2. on May 16th at 06:38 pm
    PrincessLadyBug said:

    ((((((Mike)))))) Poor honey! I feel your pain, dude! For me it was insulin they kept switching around & at the end of several years of experimenting, my numbers were still out of control. Then we found out that my only other blood relative who was T1 (my Grammy’s older brother) had a history of insulin resistance. So oral meds were added & I saw my first low since diagnosis. It was scary, but I was elated because that meant we were doing something right. Finally.

    I say it IS your decision. Your doctor has hundreds, maybe thousands of patients, but you are the only patient you have. So you have to be your own advocate. I tell all my doctors that I am VERY vocal about my opinions & VERY involved in my own care. They may have the PhD, but I know my own body better than they do. The ones that don’t agree aren’t my doctor for long. Some of the old school kind of doctors are not comfortable with me as their patient. Doesn’t make them a bad doctor, just makes them bad doctor for me. :)

    So I say call your doc or go see her & talk about it. Discuss options. Maybe there is a new oral med out there that will work. I know all the guessing & experimenting can really get you down, but hey that’s what we’re here for. To prop you up when you’re feeling overwhelmed. Just don’t give up. There is ALWAYS an option. And if this doc doesn’t have one for you, then find one that will.

    You gotta take care of you, Mike, because the DOC can’t do without you. Stay strong, buddy. I know you can’t see us, but the entire DOC is standing under that tree ready to catch you if you slip. And I promise no one’s pissing on it. We made them go down a couple of trees to do that. :P

  3. on May 16th at 07:26 pm
    Crystal said:

    Mr. T would never take a leak on your tree. Or you. I Might be able to get him to leak on the Doctor….wait, no, it’s not her fault. :-)
    Hope I sort of made you chuckle.
    Sorry you’re going through all this.
    Hope things settle Soon. Hang tough, Dbro. ((hugs))

  4. on May 16th at 09:28 pm
    Natalie Sera said:

    Why do you think the doc will be opposed to insulin? If the sulfonylurea doesn’t work, it means your pancreas CAN’T make enough insulin to meet your needs, and you may need injected insulin. The caveat is that you may need a lot, and some docs think that a lot of insulin is dangerous to the arteries.

    There ARE other oral meds out there, but none without side effects. So you are between a rock and a hard place, but having high BGs WILL kill you eventually. I really hope you find a solution where the pros outnumber the cons.

  5. on May 18th at 08:34 am
    Scott S said:

    Type 2 Diabetes Drugs have a lifespan for most patients, meaning they may work for a few years but it doesn’t usually last forever, so this is an unfortunate reality. However, many people do find great success with products like Byetta and Victoza do work very well for them. so whatever it takes to stay well is the correct path. The concerns over injections, BTW, are overrated … take it from the type 1 community!!

  6. on May 28th at 01:26 am
    Raquel said:

    Hi, I have type 2 and also what some call syndrome X: high cholesterol (those nasty little tryglicerides!!) and a tendency towards high bloos pressure as well as hypothyroidism). Just wanted to say I feel your pain. I did very well on metofrmin and Avandia for about 5 years, until I was taken off Avandia because it was recalled. I turned out to be allergic to Actos (I blew up like a balloon and my blood pressure went up) and could not tolerate Januvia (major stomach upset, constipation, gas, and the worst: dizziness). After an unhappy meeting with my doctor I decided to keep taking metformin and my other meds but no other type 2 drug. I began exercizing every day for at least 40 minutes every day. I previously had only exercised sporadically. I hate exercise. But I have kept at it and kept at it (stubborness has its benefits) and have lost weight (from 158 to 147) and have been able to keep my bg under 200. I am now trying to keep them under 180. I have also kept a stricter diet, with mixed success. I don’t know what will work for you, but you ARE your own best advocate, you know your body best and how you feel. If the doctors won’t listen to you, give ‘em hell! BTW a lot of type 2 drugs also cause weight gain and make weight loss more difficult, which in my mind ruins them for type 2 diabetics, since it is well known and documented that weight loss is imperative for type 2s as it will lower bg. Also insulin therapy may cause weight gain andmake weight loss more difficult. But definitely check out all your options with your doctor.

  7. on May 28th at 01:28 am
    Raquel said:

    Oh also with Januvia my bg were consistently in the 200+ range. ugh.



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An Appointment Worth the Wait
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After nearly two months of waiting for the appointment, I finally got to see the cardiologist on Friday to review the results of the cardiac MRI, blood work, and 30 day heart monitor that I had to endure in an effort to determine why there had been a decline in the function of my heart and if I would need a defibrillator.

I woke up late and had to scramble to get ready and head out to the medical center on the other side of town.  Normally if I’m in a rush and stressed like that it shows up when the nurses check my blood pressure, etc.., but not this visit.  My BP was normal and by the time the doctor came in to see me, I was oddly peaceful.

To my relief, the doctor confirmed that the cardiac MRI  indicated that my ejection fraction is at 47%. That is in stark contrast to the 35% that previous tests had indicated. And since defibrillators generally aren’t prescribed for patients with ejection fractions over 36%, that means I will not need one.  The doctor stated that a normal ejection fraction is around 55%, and since mine is 47%, he considers the weakness of my heart muscle to be mild.  Since I’m already taking the best medications for treating congestive heart failure and improving heart strength, the doctor wants to continue with the regimen that I’m on now and see how things progress.

The results of the blood work done to check my potassium, iron, thyroid, etc… all came back within the normal ranges.  While I’m thankful that those results were good, they are also frustrating because we were hoping to find a treatable cause for the decline, like an iron overload or something like that.  Alas, there’s no evidence of that, and I’m really not going to spend much time dwelling on it.

There were a few points of interest on tapes from the heart monitor I wore for a month, but the doctor said they seemed to indicate normal elevations in heart rate that anyone can expect from time to time.  Nothing to really worry about.

I can’t begin to explain how glad I am to finally have some of the answers that I needed, and how thankful I am that the results from the tests were worth the grief I endured going through them.  And as frustrating as the wait has been, it’s been worth it.

As for that odd peaceful feeling I was feeling on Friday?  It’s still with me as I write this.  I’m more at peace with things now than I have been in a long time.  And, along with the improvement in how I’m feeling mentally, I’m also feeling better and stronger physically.  And that, my friends, is saying something.

And speaking of friends, I can’t begin to say how much I appreciate the love, support, good thoughts and prayers that I’ve received from everyone in the Diabetes Online Community over the last few months.  If there were any doubts in my mind as to whether I’m loved or not, they are long gone.  To all of you:  Thank You, and Lots of Love, my friends!

 

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It’s OK to Need Help
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In previous blog posts and conversations over the last two years, I’ve made no bones about the fact that I’ve battled with bouts of depression and anxiety since I was diagnosed with congestive heart failure and type 2 diabetes.

The daily routines of medications, blood sugar testing, meal planning, and other related bullshit, combined with the constant worry of trying to figure out how to pay for all of those medications and testing supplies, are simply overwhelming at times.

Add to that all of the typical stuff that goes along with every day life, you know… work, bills, chores, relationships, etc… and you’ve got yourself a great big barrel of fun.

Then top that off with dealing with a loved one being diagnosed with stage 4 cancer and going through all of the activities and emotions that go along with that, and being forced to put a near 9 year relationship on hold while your best friend becomes the primary caregiver for that loved one, and that great big barrel of fun transforms into the biggest clusterf*#K you’ve ever seen.

It’s all enough to destroy someone mentally. And the extreme mental hurt quickly manifests into extreme physical hurt. And you eventually reach a point where you just can’t take it anymore, and feel like throwing the towel in.

As difficult as it is for me to admit, I reached that point in the early part of February.

And the hard part is that I know it didn’t have to happen. I had a little bottle of “happy” pills in my possession that my doctor had given me the month before. I just wasn’t able to take them immediately, because I was starting a new blood sugar medication and had to get through the side effects of it before starting the other medicine.

And then when it was time to start the Celexa, I kept putting it off and putting it off, because of the fear that I’d have the same problems with it that I had with similar drugs years before. When you’ve had a bad experience with medications, or anything for that matter, you tend to shy away from them. It’s perfectly normal to have those feelings.

Things finally reached a point in early February where I knew I needed help, and knew that I had to take the plunge into the world of anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medications again. And so, on the 21st of last month, I broke the seal on the prescription bottle, cut the little pill in half as the doctor had instructed, and jumped.

Tomorrow, March 21st, will mark a month since I started the medication, and I can honestly say that I’m glad I did. I’m not nearly as edgy as I had been, and feel quite mellow most of the time. And mellow is a good thing.

The moral of this story is this: It’s OK to need help; You just have to ask for it!

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Mike Hoskins

Thanks for being awesome, Mike! Not only was it very cool you let me borrow the pin, but it was great sitting and talking for a bit before getting back on the road. And Riley loved seeing you again! The pin on my collar did spark some conversation, too - so thanks, my friend!!

Kate

Yay Mike! Thanks for these links. Heading over to both blogs now!

Ashley

When I decided to keep blogging, I never thought I'd end up being able to help my favorite Jedi Master get on the lizard spit wagon but I'm so glad I was able to help. Love ya buddy.

Mike Hoskins

Thanks for the links to two such awesome people, Mike! Loved hearing all the cool diverse stories of how we got into the DOC, and seeing the wonderful personalities up close and personal whenever that chance arises! Great post, my friend.