• Hello Endo, Goodbye Endo

    My second visit with the new endocrinologist was Tuesday afternoon.  The appointment went rather well.  My blood pressure was great.   I’ve lost 5 pounds since my last visit.  The A1c that was done in the office today read 6.8, down from 7.5 at last check.  That was a nice surprise.  Clearly, the changes that were made during my first appointment are making a difference, and I’m doing better than my mind will allow me to believe. Doc D. made on minor adjustment to my meal time insulin regimen, and really wants me to focus on dietary changes, but other than that, he was happy with the progress that I’ve made.  Hell, I told him that, in my mind, the…

  • Diabetes Social Media Burnout

    Today is Diabetes Social Media Burnout Blog Day.  And guess what? My mind is extra crispy right now. I’ve been trying to find the words for a post on how I’m feeling, but they elude me.  My dear friend, Mike Hoskins, suggested using an image instead.  Smart guy, that one.   Why the hell didn’t I think of that? So, here you go.  This is how I’m feeling today.  Like a candle that has been blown out.  The flame gone, yet embers remain that could be rekindled with some effort.  I just don’t have it in me today. Others in the DOC have approached this far more eloquently than I have, and I very much appreciate their efforts.  You can find…

  • The Ah Ha Moment

    If you’ve read my blog, or followed me on Twitter or Facebook, for any length of time, you’re probably aware that life has not been too kind to me or my family over the last few years.  And you are probably aware that as the year 2014 was ending, I was in a very dark place and I was considering ending my life.  Obviously, I didn’t.  I can’t express how thankful I am for the messages of love and support that came in from all of my DOC friends and family at that time. In mid-January, I was reading a blog post written by my friend Mari Ruddy, in which she mentioned her experience with PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder) stemming…

  • Confessions of a broken man

    Broken and wore out.  That’s just how I feel.  Ashamed and guilty, too. For a the better part of the last year there has been a dark cloud around me.   One death of a loved one right after another, and other family and personal issues left and right. More and more, I’ve had thoughts of suicide overwhelming my mind.  I don’t think I really want to die.  I just want to stop hurting all the time.  While I don’t feel that I have the courage to actually pull the trigger or push the plunger on a syringe or act on a dozen other means that I’ve thought about, I don’t know for sure.    Depression lies.  It makes you think and…

  • Happy Thanksgiving Everyone

    Wishing a Safe and Happy Thanksgiving to Everyone in the Diabetes Online Community! May we all take time today to remember what this day is all about; Giving thanks for all of the blessings that come to us. Today, as with each day, I am thankful to be alive, I am thankful for my family and friends, and I am thankful for the good memories of those who are no longer here to share in this day. I’m thankful to have been able to spend more time with my family in Louisville this year.  My schedule and the distance make it difficult to get down there at times.  And, if I’m being honest, issues with my health over the last…