• A step forward

    Well, with 2014 over, and the Confessions of a broken man out of my head, I’m starting 2015 by trying to get back to caring for myself.  The first step forward has been sorting my medications out into the pillbox and, of course, actually taking them yesterday and today.  I’ve taken my Victoza, Lantus and Humalog as well.  And I’ve checked my blood sugar.  It may not seem like much to some, but it’s a starting point.   It’s something that I know that I need to work on.  A fix that can be made immediately.  It’s a step forward.  

  • Confessions of a broken man

    Broken and wore out.  That’s just how I feel.  Ashamed and guilty, too. For a the better part of the last year there has been a dark cloud around me.   One death of a loved one right after another, and other family and personal issues left and right. More and more, I’ve had thoughts of suicide overwhelming my mind.  I don’t think I really want to die.  I just want to stop hurting all the time.  While I don’t feel that I have the courage to actually pull the trigger or push the plunger on a syringe or act on a dozen other means that I’ve thought about, I don’t know for sure.    Depression lies.  It makes you think and…

  • I’m Worn

    This song, “Worn” by Tenth Avenue North, says so many of the things that I’ve felt over the last several months.

  • 30 things about my Invisible Illnesses – Revisited

    So, today is World Diabetes Day, and in honor of that fact I thought I’d take the time to revisit the 30 things about my invisible illness meme that I’ve shared in the past.  It’s been a couple of years since I last updated that and there have been some changes in my routine and way of thinking.  So, it’s time for an update.  Here we go! The illnesses I live with are: Type 2 Diabetes & Congestive Heart Failure I was diagnosed with them in the year: 2008 But I had symptoms since:   Longer than I really care to admit.  Looking back, I probably had the symptoms of type 2 diabetes for at least a few years before…