• Trying to Fix Me

    The better part of the last year, since watching my aunt die of cancer on July 27, 2013, has been a real struggle for me mentally. That experience pretty much blew open Pandora’s box of “why bother?” demons and poured them all over my head. While I’m no stranger to fighting those demons, this time has been different. This time, I’ve been losing that fight. I haven’t had the drive to care for myself as I have been. For almost 5 years, I’ve thrown myself head first into my treatment and management routines. Always on top of things. Yet there are now large gaps in my glucose logs. And other lapses that just aren’t normal for me. Let alone healthy.…

  • Giving the gym another shot

    Recently I tweeted that I had joined a gym.  And there have been a few tweets since indicating that I was either en route to the gym or had just left.  What that initial tweet should have said, though, was “I just joined a gym, AGAIN!” Since I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes and congestive heart failure in 2008, I’ve had a couple of gym memberships which I took advantage of for a while then, for one reason or another, had to stop going.  Lack of money for the membership fees, major setbacks with my heart, and total burnout all led to dropped memberships. Over the last year, I’ve been able to increase my level of activity significantly and…