I Wish They Could See

Today is the first day of the fourth Diabetes Blog Week, created and hosted by my friend Karen over at Bittersweet Diabetes.
Today’s topic is: Share and Don’t Share
Often our health care team only sees us for about 15 minutes several times a year, and they might not have a sense of what our lives are really like. Today, let’s pretend our medical team is reading our blogs. What do you wish they could see about your and/or your loved one’s daily life with diabetes? On the other hand, what do you hope they don’t see?

What I wish the doctor could see

I wish my doctor could see the bruises and scars on my stomach from all of the injections of Lantus, Novolog, and Victoza I take.

I wish she could see the pained look on my face as the needles pierce my skin and the Lantus begins to burn.

I wish the doctor could see my frustrations as I sit down each week and sort out a dozen pills.

I wish she could see the looks of stress and strain on my face as I struggle to figure out how to pay for all of the medications and supplies. As I choose between buying medications, paying bills, and putting food on the table.

I wish the doctor could see the concern in April’s eyes when she knows I’m struggling with highs and lows.

I wish the doctor could see all of the external factors that impact my ability to manage well.

I wish she could see the efforts I put into managing my diabetes each day. And see more good in my numbers than bad.

But what I hope my doctor never sees,is me as just one more donor to her retirement fund.