Depression,  Life,  Mental Health

Battling the other D

09/07/2010 /

“Depression hurts.” That’s what the lady in the Cymbalta commercial said this morning.  My mind screamed, “Lady, you have no idea!” in response.  The words never left my mouth, but they sure could have.

I’ve battled depression off and on for many years.  It comes and goes, and no two bouts are ever the same.  Sometimes it lasts but a day or so, and other times I battle for weeks to get back on track.  As of late, I’ve found myself in the later.

I am, for all intents and purposes, fighting with depression right now.  And it most certainly does hurt.  It hurts mentally, affecting my ability to work, to focus on what’s important, and essentially, to care about much at all.

It hurts physically, affecting my blood sugars, my blood pressures, and causing headaches and other aches and pains.

I hate the way I’m feeling right now.  Like I’m caught in a dense fog, and can’t see anything around me.  I know it will pass eventually, I’ve been through it all before, but I’m struggling with it nonetheless.

Perhaps a vacation would help.  It would certainly give me some time to rest, and hopefully clear my mind of the funk that has filled it.  I have a three day weekend coming to me this week; I just have to make it through the rest of today and tomorrow, and then I’ll have Thursday, Friday, and Saturday off.  If that doesn’t help, well, I do have plenty of vacation time racked up.

I think I can make it, I think I can make it.  No wait…………..I KNOW I CAN! And here we go……….

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7 Comments

  • Bob P

    09/07/2010 at 4:09 pm

    Thank you for posting on this. There are a lot of us in the community that struggle with depression. As you say, it does pass. But it really, truly bites until it does.

  • George

    09/07/2010 at 4:30 pm

    It is a constant battle with depression for me. And lately I have noticed that the battle to get out of the funk take less and less time I get depressed. But it still happens.

    You did the right thing though, reach out to your friends who love and care about you and you will start feeling better in no time!

    You have a lot to deal with the second you wake up until you go to bed. Take it easy on yourself, you are not a cartoon and you cannot expect to be Mr. Jollypants all the time! Life is not like that.

    Take care my friend and let me know if I can help at all.

  • Sysy Morales

    09/08/2010 at 9:49 am

    I feel for you…I have been dealing with depression since I was about 12…I managed to get rid of it a few years ago except for a few short bouts here and there. Well, for the past month I’m struggling again. It is rough because how do you do what you should to stay healthy when you feel so down? That is my struggle. Anyway, I have written a lot on this subject on my site incase you ever want to look up the topic of depression on it. You are totally right in saying that you know you can. This makes all the difference! Good luck to you. I hope you feel better very soon.

  • Michael Hoskins

    09/12/2010 at 10:26 pm

    Hope the 3-day weekend treated you well and helped, Mike. I’ve been dealing with depression myself for most of my life and have been navigating some intense bouts more recently, on this end. Not easy, but the interaction/support/discussion from those around me helps so incredibly much. So, you know it, but to reiterate: we’re here. No matter what. You’ve got my contacts, phone, and email, please don’t hesitate to use at any time, my friend. Take care.